hello , hello ! /le sigh
annyeong yeoreobun !
[duhh , like there's so many people over here . . :P]
first of all ,
I'M SORRY !
[naega jal jal motaesseo ~]
i didn't have the time to update this crappy blog of mine . .
reason ?
my title gave it away . .
I'M BUSY ! !
arrachi ?
B-U-S-Y !
yeah . . :(
this month [n next month , n the next month n forever ! ! ] currently are my 'busy period' . .
my SPM trial is just around the corner , n i don't think i'm ready yet !
damn it !
why must it come so fast ? ? ?
waeeeeeeee ? ? [i da naaaa~]
heuk3 . .
plus , i got extra classes after school , every single day . .
n i won't be home until it's 5 pm . .
so , that cut my time on the internet short right ?
guess i won't be able to do what i used to right now . .
coz i need to focus on study right now . .
[even though somebody is kind enough to tell me that i'm lazy . . :P]
yeah , i probably don't study much ,
but hell , what's it got to do with ya ?
lmao . . wae am i mad ? >.<
duhh . . let it be . .
actually , apart from telling that i'm gonna be on hiatus pretty soon , i have another thing to blab about . .
it's not that important , n no one cares after all . .
but , i just wanna say it ~
[it's my blog after all . . what do u care ?]
i'm pretty sad actually . .
not really 'sad' , just , kinda ,
disappointed .
yup , DISAPPOINTED . .
about what ?
well , it's not like i really care , but that person is the one who mouthed this out first . .
that person used to say that , no matter what happen , we're still friends , like , 'close friend' . .
or should i say it out loud ?
yeah , ok , [since she doesn't care after all]
we're still like , siblings . . :P
[call me outdated , but i actually like it]
yup , she's the one who said that , in the first place . .
now , i'm not some kind of butthurt , i just feel like i'm being cheated . . or maybe , i just set my hopes too high . .
i just feel like , she doesn't really meant what she said , n i'm quite sure about it . .
again , i'm not looking for attention , but is it that hard to even ask about how i've been doing ?
just a simple 'hi' or 'how are u' will do it . .
i'm not asking for anything , but since it's her who said that i'm still her sister , wouldn't it be her to be asking me about , anything ?
once again , i don't really care , but would u please meant what u say ?
u're making me feel like a crap . .
n seriously , i hate that . .
well , in the end , who would've remember someone like me eh ?
i guess i'm like the air , transparent .
that's why , no one sees me . .
[accept for that bish Ahn . . n my dear dongsaeng , Wana]
n maybe some other people . .
but i don't think she's one of them . .
the proof is right in front of me . .
i don't think she even remember me . .
oh , just , um , yeah , whatever . .
i don't care . .
i hope u're happy with ur life . .
i wish u all the best , even though u probably don't need it from me . .
for the last time , [cause i won't bring this up anymore , n i won't consider anything between us anymore]
goodbye , dongsaeng . hope u don't take me as ur 'sister' anymore , cause u've really hurt me .
thank you .
-fin .